Monday, February 23, 2009

THE BIG 22

So last Friday was Linsey's Birthday and I was going to wait to post this until I had the pictures back from the party... but unfortunately they were deleted from the camera (the who did it and why has not been figured out). But we had a SUPER fun night, 22 of us met at Cafe Sabor and ate some awesome dinner and had A LOT of laughs, then we took the party back to Stephs and laughed some more had an impromptu interpretive dance performance (HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISSY) and played some fun games. The party broke up early the next morning and we parted feeling thoroughly partied!! Thanks so much to everyone who came and made it fun, if anyone knows a way you can recover pictures from a digital camera could ya let me know??

But I did want to tell Linsey how much she means to me, getting to know her this past year has been so amazing (we have not been so cordial to each other in the past say 19 years haha) She has such a fun personality and a strength about her. If I ever have a problem I always go to her first to find out what to do!!! She always does my hair even though I make her to crazy unhealthy things to it. She makes me smile, and I love to make her laugh. She even does things she doesn't want to for me like playing in the Ocean with me (even though in Hawaii I had to pull her in a tube...and in New York it was only for a bit because it was sooooo cold!) She even played star fish blow fish with me!! She is such an example on everything in life from being a good friend to being a good tipper. I love you SISTER!!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

a little note from the past....

With so much confusion in my life I have been trying hard to find a balance, and it seems to be working mostly. I get up almost everyday for work, get showered, get ready (not to nanny @ 7:00 am but come on thats pushing it) but on my days off which seem to be multiplying I don't know what to do with myself!! I just want to go back to when life was easy!! Although watching Cas go through her teens I defiantly don't want to go back that far!! I did find tonight a little note I wrote, and I dated it back to roughly the middle of my junior year soooo roughly 3 years ago....


Why does it seem like yesterday when me and tia were fighting over who was older and she told me to get off her property, but in all reality it was almost 11 years ago. i remember the summer of cards and the mermaids, the summer of BS, the summer spent making huts in the camel humps, and of course rollerblading and walking to school. but those years are past in a little over a year i will be graduated from high school and having to choose what career i want to pursue, and who i want to be. as i watched my cousins today ages 12, 9, 8, 4, and 9 months, i long for the days of believing in Santa Clause, and the Easter bunny. they are so innocent, like they would never look twice at evil and temptations. i long to be young, but as i get older i realize that i am closer to becoming more like Christ and someday, not soon, returning to him. so as much as i long to make a time machine, i also long to just wait it out, and experience life in full.
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That picture was taken my Junior year, so much has changed I no longer have such a rosie outlook on life, I have gotten further and further away from all my 'goals'. I have been wasting my time really! It has taken me over a year to get my life back into some kind of order, I moved away, I slightly grew up, I experienced a whole different life. Yet here I am, living at home (loving it too by the way mommy), not in school, working a low income job by choice??? I am stumbling around trying to remember what I am here for, however I am hoping that I am stumbling in the right direction. Because really I do want to stick around a while longer and see what more I can experience.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Books Books and More Books, and A BIRTHDAY

So one of my FAVORITE things to do is read a good book... and although over the past year or so I have been swept into easy romance reads (come on who doesn't want to read a good fantasy novel??) I have recently started to pursue different genres. I fell into the twilight craze last year and a few months ago finished the fourth book and would defiantly recommend those, but I just finished a book that I think everyone should read. Its Confessions of a Shopaholic... Now stay with me here, if you don't like shopping or even clothes this is a still must read because everyone has their weaknesses and hardships because of them. Some people spend to much time in front of the computer....or in front of the TV...or at the gym....or working....this shows that no one is exempt from mental weakness. I also read the next book in this lovely series Shopaholic takes Manhattan, this book really spoke to me because of my new love of NYC, but I would recommend it highly too! These are quick easy reads with real human characters. And today I am going to dive into Marley & Me, so I will let you know how that one goes. Any body have any suggestions of good books??? Please leave me a comment on what your reading!!
Its also Casidy's 13th birthday tomorrow and I just wanted her to know how much I love her! She is such a mature little thing and she is always making me laugh. She is so passionate about dance and living life to the fullest. Without her my life would be so boring...(no offense Linsey!) She is such an entertainer...I often times wonder where she gets it... She is growing up so fast I still remember changing her butt, and when she first learned to ride a bike she skipped training wheels altogether. She is so smart and is a loyal friend, I know there was a reason that Heavenly Father waited 7 years to bring her into our family, she keeps us young and reminds us often to relax and enjoy life. I was so glad that she got to come to New York to visit me and that she has turned out to be a wonderful and loving teenager!! Love you BABE!! Happy Birthday!