When I think that my whole world is crashing down around me and that I don't know who I am or what I want to be or do, I get hit with such a blow that I see the light through all the crap that is my mind. My Grandpa Luthi passed away yesterday and hearing of his passing was very unexpected. When I was younger he was fun and loving but it wasn't until these past few years that I have really gotten to know him. He was funny and so clever and he could always make me smile. He was also genuinely interested in what I was doing, he was so chatty and I loved talking to him about my plans for the future. I will miss him everyday although I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and contemplating his passing has made me re-evaluate my life. Am I doing everything I can so that one day I can be reunited with him? No, but that is about to change because even as I am typing I can feel the reassurance that he is with our Heavenly Father and that he lived a good life and was a good example to his family and friends. But what am I doing??? What I have become is not a person that he would be proud of and that hurts me, so from today I am changing. I am going to try everyday to be the person that he was because he was happy and loving and kind, he is the person that I want to emulate. I love you Grandpa and am looking forward to seeing you again.

HALLOWEEN

So from all the help I got (none!!) I finally choose a costume for Halloween this year... me and my two friends are going to be the Muses from Hercules. We are very excited and pictures will be posted as soon as our costumes are complete. We have some fun plans coming up now through the big day of scariness, the corn maze, cookie making, haunted forest, Lacy's party, the howl, and many more but if anyone has any ideas about other fun activities let me know!

life interupted

So for the past month and a half or so I have been seriously considering my future...well as serious as I can handle, which means I am just thinking about it constantly and doing nothing about what I am thinking. I really need to declare my major and my minor(s), but I think I am scared of being backed into something I don't want to do. Also they are many avenues and majors I can pursue with the career I am currently pondering. So do I become Dr. Jordan Luthi Psychiatrist, or Jordan Luthi Marriage and Family counselor? Do I go through Social Work and set up a private practice or do I go through Psychology, or do I go through the FCHD program????? So many decisions I don't know what to do, maybe just drop all those plans and open a salon with the sister. But until then I guess I am just going to be stuck in a limbo...

October

Its October!! Halloween is just around the corner! Oh my October is my favorite month and Halloween one of my favorite holidays. The many reasons that I love October is because it is finally fall which means that the days are warm but not hot, and the nights are nippy. I love to open my windows and nuzzle under the covers, I also love to carve pumkins, dress up eat candy I mean who doesn't right? I also love the smells of fall and all the colors. I wish that Utah only had two seasons, Spring and Fall...but alas that isn't reality. So the main decision to make about Halloween is what to be!??! I am struggling with that myself, last year I was ursela from the Little Mermaid...But what to be this year?? a flapper maybe?? me and my group of friends the ones in the picture were thinking maybe the decades?? someone be 20's 30's ect...what do you think????? any ideas I need help!!!!