My Love/Hate Relationship with October

I thought i loved october,

• the crisp fall air
• being able to sleep underneath the covers and not get too hot
• the leaves changing colors
• it getting darker sooner
• corn mazes
• haunted houses
• pumpkins
• halloween
• and the list literally goes on and on.

But i recently realized that these things i 'love' actually make me 'hate' october. for example

• the cool air? maybe its cool in the afternoons but the mornings are freaking cold!! As in i am skipping class and staying in my warm bed.
• my warm bed, i wanna stay in it until at least 11:00 am
• it getting darker sooner makes me sleepy and want to go to bed at 7:30...
  
• the leaves, stick to everything my shoes making me drag them into the house and making my shoes wet in the bitter cold mornings.
• halloween i still love you but i hate deciding what to be, and i hate when i find the perfect costume early and i order all my supplies in advance and some dont show up (like the 74 feathers i ordered!!!)
• haunted things, you always sound like a good idea but you never manage to scare me. it is a waste of my money and time...

so i guess that i don't love october, i think i do but in fact i do NOT!!

one thing i do love about october is that makes me remember a great man in my life, although i remember him every day and his example will always stick with me Oct. 29 will always be a sad day. its been one year tomorrow since my grandpa luthi past away, he was an amazing man and i will always remember the conversations we have had and the advice that he has given to me. i still feel very close to him and i cannot wait for the day that i can see him again. although i think he may be disappointed in me for my lack of effort at school lately. learning was something he taught me to never take for granted and every time i read a newspaper i think of him. he was always learning always keeping up on current events. he has impacted my life in such a positive way. i love you grandpa!