A Different World

The more time I spend in East Hampton NY, the more I realize that even though NY and UT are in the same Country--we are miles apart. Just a few differences include that the average mom of a 6 year old is my mothers age (around 40), getting married before you're 30 is not a good idea, and the kid to nanny ration is 2:1. It has been such an experience being here, and in only two weeks I have learned so much.

I have been really lucky to have found a good family, the Seitz's are an amazing family and have really done a great job raising their kids. In fact today we had a BBQ at a friends house, (it was my day off but I went to help out) and the kids were running crazy!! I figured no worries the parents will step in, but oh why would they do such a thing when a nanny could do it for them? So mine and Summers day was spent wrangling and entertaining a large group of children. Another fearful fact?? I was raised to help out, you eat it you help clean it right? Not so much here...Dine and Dash was probably invented here actually. So I did my parents proud, I stayed and picked up trash and washed dishes and put food away, yep I am a super hero!!

My time here has taught me not to take the little things for granted, like a car, toilet paper, a dad who unplugs the toilet, a mom who does my laundry (its been two weeks and I need it done BAD), and of course a family that helps out.

One down...Ten to go...

Oh my Ga-- I finished my first week as a nanny. Not only do I love my girls, Kelly and Nicole, the Seitz family is feeling like well family. Don't think I don't miss my family and friends in Utah, but me and Summer are having a blast in the Hampton's. The beach is about a ten minute walk from home and it is LOVELY!! I spend most my day with 2 year old Nicole, (Nicky) so its a good thing that she is a talker or I'd be talking to myself. The girls love to watch Noggin, although they only get an hour a day, every minute is spent asking for more noggin time. One week down means another to conquer, and although we have our ups and downs I am having a blast getting paid to be a practice stay-at-home mommy!

Me and Summer are not without adventures on our own as well. On our day off we ditched the strollers and diaper bags for some magazines and hit the beach. A warm sunny Sunday turned from beautiful to dreary in a flash, and we were suddenly caught in the rain. Without a ride home, and me in shorts we rain around and hid in the door way to the bathroom for cover. Soon we started walking home in spite of the rain around us.

Later we stopped back at the beach in Melissa's minivan, yep a hottie snatcher, and ate our dinner. A fun and messy dinner turned into a big problem...Summer had left the headlights on and the van's battery went dead!!! With not a friendly person around...(the surrounding cars offered no help) Summer was about ready to break down, a minute later who shows up?? That's right folks a friendly police officer, who we promptly flagged down to jump our car. The moral of this story?? Always have a drivers licence and registration (we had neither) and be nice to our uniformed officers. And as always, with Summer and Jordan....BE PREPARED FOR ANYTHING!!

Off to Never Never Land

Where's Peter Pan when you need him? Today I start my new job, being a nanny...as easy as it may sound to many people it's been a bit more of a struggle for me than I expected. Although the girls are super cute, Nicki is 2 and Kelly is 5, being in a new place with people I don't really know well has been tough. The time change from Hawaii to Utah to New York has made my tummy cranky, it wants to eat at very inappropriate times. Although I am really glad that I made my decision to come here for the summer, three months is looking like a lot longer than I had originally planned. I know it will fly by but I still expect to see my parents and sisters every night, and having to talk to them on the phone just doesn't cut it. I miss my family and my bed, my pillows and my bed...yeah I LOVED my bed. But a new experience is here and I am hanging on for the ride.

On the road again...

I am consumed with nervous energy, my trip to Hawaii is tomorrow, and that means that New York is getting closer. Not that I am getting cold feet, nope I am in it to win it, but leaving my life behind...disappearing in a sense...hasn't been as easy as I had thought. Finally I decided to sit down and write thank you's to my bosses at Kohl's store 195 but I couldn't do it. It was almost too hard to say good bye. This made my thoughts go into a tail spin...if I couldn't say goodbye to Kohl's can I say goodbye to my family?

Although its not forever this is a step into uncertain waters and I haven't ventured far from my swimming hole in almost two years. I've had the same job, the same friends, the same responsibilities since High School. I see the same people day in and day out, heck I get asked questions when I am in my sweats and shopping not working. But what is it about new things, about change that makes people, well me so scared? Its the fact that I have to start over, from scratch. Everything I knew, everyone I knew changes...I am no longer in control over my life, I am simply a wave that can be tossed upon open water.

This is the same reason that I've been afraid to find new friends, to meet new people, and try new things. Because I am scared of losing control over my own life. Well today I am cutting my own strings, I am letting go and I am not going to live my life as a puppet, or a puppeteer. I am not going to be so controlling, I am going to live for the moment, even if the moment scares me to death. Man I sooo need a vacation!